An Early Morning Visitation

By Hazel Holland

After three weeks of earnestly seeking the Lord to understand His love for me to a greater degree, I was suddenly awakened at three o’clock in the morning. Puzzled as to why I was so wide-awake, I closed my eyes to go back to sleep when all of a sudden I heard someone calling my name. “Hazel, I love you! Hazel, I love you!”

Although I knew that the voice was only in my own head, it was so real that I opened my eyes and looked around the room to be sure I was alone. The kindness in the voice reminded me of a friend of mine whose hair I had done on a weekly basis years earlier. She had been a spiritual mom to me before she suddenly died of cancer.The voice kept calling my name and repeating the same phrase, “Hazel, I love you! Hazel, I love you!”

“Is that you, Lord?” I timidly asked as I remembered the story of young Samuel. As soon as I asked the question I knew it was God, and I began to weep. It seemed that I was taken up from my bed and suspended in space. Glorious light and swirling colors of the rainbow seemed to envelop me as I was surrounded by the overwhelming presence of the Lord. In His presence I experienced the most powerful unconditional love, acceptance and forgiveness that I have ever known. It seemed that as I lay there in His arms I was wrapped in the colors of His forgiveness. Liquid light seemed to bathe me, caress me and envelop me. I believe I experienced a glimpse of the heavenly ecstasy that awaits us all beyond the veil of this life. His love was so real I wept uncontrollably, but at the same time laughed freely.

After a while He took me away in the Spirit to many scenes in my life—scenes that I was not proud of, or eager to revisit. As we visited each one all He would say was, “I love you! I love you!” There was never any harsh word of condemnation or reproof for the sins I saw I had committed, or the sins that had been committed against me. His powerful love had wiped them all away. His unconditional love had broken the stronghold of condemnation over my mind. I was free from guilt.

As He brought me to the final scene, He showed me a classroom. Finally I sobbed out my heart to Him… “God, if people only knew how much you love them and have forgiven them they would come running to you with open arms. They’ve got to know! They’ve got to know!”

He gently replied, “Go, tell them!"

“Yes, Lord! I will tell them. I must tell them. They cannot miss out on knowing a God of love like You! The world must know. Give me the grace to tell them, Father.”

Then the visitation ended. As I opened my eyes I saw the time was only three-thirty. In half an hour God had supernaturally taken me through my whole life. I knew that my life was never going to be the same again, because God had prepared me to receive more of His heart... more of His love.  I knew the way that He loved me was the way He loved everyone on the face of this earth —unconditionally.  Not only did I know that I was forgiven, but those who had sinned against me were also forgiven. The whole world was already forgiven in Christ!

After tasting the goodness of God’s love through this supernatural visitation, I wanted Jesus Christ to be Lord of my life forever.  This encounter with His goodness that took place twelve years ago created in me a desire for greater intimacy and fellowship with Him.

His unconditional love broke the stronghold of condemnation and fear over my mind.  I was freed from guilt and false shame.  As I continue to experience the goodness of God in my everyday life, I long to share His goodness with others so that they too may come to know the One who died to free and deliver them.♥


Inner Healing of Damaged Emotions 

Please Put Your Words in My Mouth!

By Hazel Holland

A few years before I attended a church where people raised their hands to praise God, I received a dream from the Lord that opened my eyes to the biblical precedent for worshiping God in this beautiful way. Having previously been taught to believe that openly expressing my feelings to God in corporate worship was wrong, because it could lead to emotionalism and therefore to deception, I was very much surprised by what God revealed in this dream.

In the dream I entered a building through a set of double doors into this large room. From the back of the room where I entered it looked very much like a large gymnasium that could double up as an auditorium for meetings. It appeared to be packed full of people who were standing up with their backs to me.

As I entered through the doors and turned right, an usher was waiting for me in the back corner. He walked up to me and proceeded to take me by the right arm and walk me down the side aisle in the hopes of finding a seat...or so I thought.

When we got to the front row he walked past it, still holding on to my arm as he led me to the bottom of the steps that led up to the front of the stage. Obediently, I followed his direction as he indicated that I should go up the steps. When I reached the top step, he turned to leave and I turned around to face the sea of faces.

Up until this point in the dream everything had been quiet. But when I turned to look at the room packed out with people I saw that they had their hands uplifted to God in praise and were singing some of the most beautiful music I have ever heard. I was overcome by deep feelings of love toward God and I spontaneously raised my hands and began to join them in worship. Although in real life I had never raised my hands in worship to God, I couldn't help myself in the dream. Tears poured down my cheeks as I experienced His tangible presence.

We continued to worship God in this manner for some time. After awhile I opened my eyes and noticed that there was a bright beam of light coming from the ceiling that was directed on to me. Being in the spotlight made the features of the people in the crowd nearest to me rather blurry. It didn't matter that they were there, because I was so locked into God's presence that everyone else kind of faded away. I wanted to worship him forever like this as I was being immersed in his glory!

In the dream I finally became aware that at some point in time the worship would stop, and I was expected to speak to this auditorium full of people. Because the room reminded me of a large gymnasium I had a sense in the dream that these were college age students.

But as I continued to worship God and bask in His awesome presence (something I had never yet experienced in real life) I became aware of the fact that I had no notes and was unprepared for what I should speak about. In real life I would never have been caught off guard like this! But up there on that stage, soaking in His presence, I had no fear of what to say even though I had no idea what I would say.I remember thinking to myself, "OK God, I have no notes and I'm not prepared for what you want me to say. But I will trust you to give me the words you want me to speak. So please put your words in my mouth and I will tell them what is on Your heart."

Suddenly the singing stopped. A quiet hush came over the place. The moment had come for me to speak. The light beaming down on me continued to give me strength and great joy. As I opened my mouth to speak I suddenly woke up from the dream.

For the next two weeks I continued to bask in God's awesome presence that I had begun to get a taste of in the dream. I wanted more of Him. And so I began a spiritual journey to find out what was on His heart that He wanted me to share with His beloved children.

By nature I am shy...not the kind of person that naturally enjoys being up front in the limelight. I have always been afraid of public speaking for fear of making a fool out of myself. So to be placed in front of a roomful of people and be asked to give an impromptu speech or share anything about my life off the top of my head would cause me to break out into a cold sweat!

What I am saying is that for me to feel relatively comfortable up front in a speaking situation I would have to be in someone else's body! I guess the closest I can get to that in this life is to be in the Spirit so my flesh doesn't have control. Then my natural panic is dissolved by His supernatural peace.

Over the past twelve years God has been faithful to continually put His words in my mouth as He has called me in various situations to speak words from His heart into people's lives. As I have opened my mouth He has always been faithful to fill it.

What is a Prophetic Journey?

By Hazel Holland

My prophetic journey began after I began receiving dreams and visions in 1995. These prophetic revelations from God not only challenged the way I had previously understood prophecy, but they completely turned my life upside down by removing me from my cherished comfort zones. I felt like I was out on a limb with no safety net beneath me to catch me if I should fall...

Having grown up in a Seventh-day Adventist (SDA) home where favorite quotes from the prophetic writings of Ellen G. White were used to support Adventism’s erroneous guilt-based theology and reliance upon good works for salvation, I wanted nothing to do with the whole subject of prophecy... Besides after years of study and research into her writings I no longer trusted the source of these dreams and visions that Ellen White supposedly received from God because much of the fruit of her teachings and revelations was not good. It didn't line up with Scripture and the God I had come to know personally.

Therefore, I had built up a strong resistance to the biblical gifts of the Spirit, especially to the gift of prophecy. Receiving visions and dreams from God that would bless and encourage or even warn others was not something I ever wanted. I considered them off limits. If God wanted to give someone else the prophetic gift that was fine, but don't bring it near me, thank you!

So when God began to speak to me through visions and dreams I didn't recognize it was Him at first. He was very gentle with me because he knew of my fear and strong resistance to anything supernatural. Since I am an artist I thought it was natural for me to see "pictures" when I prayed for people or when I talked to God. I assumed most artistic people saw "pictures."

Then one day, Charlie, a friend of mine whom I had come to know and trust, told me that all my friends in the prayer group I was a part of knew that God was giving me visions and dreams. I was dumbfounded! How could God have sneaked this "gift" past me without me recognizing it. He had made it so natural to see "pictures" in the Spirit while I was awake or asleep that I had not been afraid.

Gone was the fear of the prophetic gift, because God had presented it to me in such a positive and loving light. He had helped me see that it was given to bless and encourage His children. Even when He sometimes gave warnings it was because He loved us and was a true Father seeking His children's best interests, because God disciplines those He loves. It became so clear to me that God gives these gifts of the Spirit as aides to help us get to the root problems in our hearts. He wants to free and deliver us from those things that have held us in bondage, sometimes for generations.

On this site I will share various dreams and visions that I have received from the Spirit over the years. They were given not just to bless and encourage, and yes, sometimes warn me, but they were also given to bless and encourage you in your walk with the Lord.

Perhaps God has already been speaking to you through this gift. If He has, continue to pursue His heart and share what you have received with others so that together we can continue to build up the body of Christ.

"Wherever the River flows everything will live." Ezekiel 47:9

I invite you to jump into this River! You will be swept away by the current of His love into the deep places of His heart... Through the symbolic language of visions and dreams God continues to reveal His heart of compassion and love for His Beloved bride...