An Early Morning Visitation

By Hazel Holland

After three weeks of earnestly seeking the Lord to understand His love for me to a greater degree, I was suddenly awakened at three o’clock in the morning. Puzzled as to why I was so wide-awake, I closed my eyes to go back to sleep when all of a sudden I heard someone calling my name. “Hazel, I love you! Hazel, I love you!”

Although I knew that the voice was only in my own head, it was so real that I opened my eyes and looked around the room to be sure I was alone. The kindness in the voice reminded me of a friend of mine whose hair I had done on a weekly basis years earlier. She had been a spiritual mom to me before she suddenly died of cancer.The voice kept calling my name and repeating the same phrase, “Hazel, I love you! Hazel, I love you!”

“Is that you, Lord?” I timidly asked as I remembered the story of young Samuel. As soon as I asked the question I knew it was God, and I began to weep. It seemed that I was taken up from my bed and suspended in space. Glorious light and swirling colors of the rainbow seemed to envelop me as I was surrounded by the overwhelming presence of the Lord. In His presence I experienced the most powerful unconditional love, acceptance and forgiveness that I have ever known. It seemed that as I lay there in His arms I was wrapped in the colors of His forgiveness. Liquid light seemed to bathe me, caress me and envelop me. I believe I experienced a glimpse of the heavenly ecstasy that awaits us all beyond the veil of this life. His love was so real I wept uncontrollably, but at the same time laughed freely.

After a while He took me away in the Spirit to many scenes in my life—scenes that I was not proud of, or eager to revisit. As we visited each one all He would say was, “I love you! I love you!” There was never any harsh word of condemnation or reproof for the sins I saw I had committed, or the sins that had been committed against me. His powerful love had wiped them all away. His unconditional love had broken the stronghold of condemnation over my mind. I was free from guilt.

As He brought me to the final scene, He showed me a classroom. Finally I sobbed out my heart to Him… “God, if people only knew how much you love them and have forgiven them they would come running to you with open arms. They’ve got to know! They’ve got to know!”

He gently replied, “Go, tell them!"

“Yes, Lord! I will tell them. I must tell them. They cannot miss out on knowing a God of love like You! The world must know. Give me the grace to tell them, Father.”

Then the visitation ended. As I opened my eyes I saw the time was only three-thirty. In half an hour God had supernaturally taken me through my whole life. I knew that my life was never going to be the same again, because God had prepared me to receive more of His heart... more of His love.  I knew the way that He loved me was the way He loved everyone on the face of this earth —unconditionally.  Not only did I know that I was forgiven, but those who had sinned against me were also forgiven. The whole world was already forgiven in Christ!

After tasting the goodness of God’s love through this supernatural visitation, I wanted Jesus Christ to be Lord of my life forever.  This encounter with His goodness that took place twelve years ago created in me a desire for greater intimacy and fellowship with Him.

His unconditional love broke the stronghold of condemnation and fear over my mind.  I was freed from guilt and false shame.  As I continue to experience the goodness of God in my everyday life, I long to share His goodness with others so that they too may come to know the One who died to free and deliver them.♥


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